I'm four weeks shy of being 40. I've had three relationships where none of them have lasted more than six months. Over the last 48 hours I have only spoken with servers, my parents and I had two sentences with my neighbor. Earlier today I felt alone but now the emotion of loneliness is hitting me. What has my life been for? Has the first half of my life been for nothing? Can I expect the second half of my life to be better or worse? Now I'm just depressing myself.